Today marks 61 days since the NCAA cancelled all remaining sports due to COVID-19. That might just be another statistic in this pandemic to most people, but to me it marks the day that my dreams and my teammates’ dreams were crushed. We were having the best season in program history, sitting at 4th in the nation, and looking at our first National Championship when everything changed. No, this wasn’t the end of the world, but truthfully as a student-athlete when you spend the majority of your hours and days training for your sport, it really does seem like it. Just like that, it was all over. The only certain thing became uncertainty. What now?
After several days and weeks of shock and downright disbelief, I eventually began to find meaning in a time and place where everything normal: routines, teammates, practices, tournaments, and so on have all been taken away.
I have realized how important it is to stay connected. Our team has weekly Zoom meeting to check in with each other and to make sure everyone is still doing what they can to train during quarantine. We are also able to send videos of our swings to our coach where she can add voice-over and drawings to instruct us on what we need to be working on. We also have an at home training workout program to keep us in shape during all of this. Throughout my college years, I have developed a very structured routine and I have found it very helpful to try and mirror as best as I can the same routine while I have been home. Starting with 7am workouts, straight to practice at the golf course, and then doing my virtual school work in the afternoon, just like I would normally be doing. I have also found this structure helpful in controlling my blood sugars and have been able to figure out what foods I need to eat and when in order to maintain consistency because now it is more important than ever to take full responsible of my diabetes with the added health risks it has. Thankfully, my bloods sugars have been far easier to keep in range while at home by taking out late college nights and other hiccups that come into play at college. I have also been able to do things that I usually wouldn’t have time for during my normal “go, go, go” mentality such as journaling, reading, and “just chilling.”
I will be the first to admit that none of this has been easy nor ideal, but I look forward to the day I can squeeze my teammates again and I find peace in the fact that we are always connected, including the shared experience of this moment and all the time, effort, and energy that we have shared throughout the school year.